and trying to get a grip over my emotions! i know that God gives us emotions to enhance our lives, but not to rule them. i 've had a hard time lately remembering that, and also remembering that God has me here [[in n.c.]] for a reason.
i'm struggling right now with lonliness and self pity. mark is working all day [[air force]] and then doing computers for a few hours after that, then four nights a week he has classes from 7-10pm. meaning if i'm lucky and have a short shift on saturday at starbucks, i get to see him for about 30 hours a week. not to mention i don't have a lot to do at home. i miss my family and my friends and my life in washington. i've been feeling quite lonely but i want to get out of myself and focus on something else. sooo, i think about our baby...
which brings me to self pity! i'm feeling pretty sorry for myself because i want this so bad! but i need to focus on where and what God has for me right NOW, and also on ways i can help others even when we are low on money or resources or whatever! at the beginning reading blogs was so inspiring and encouraging, now it is becoming somewhat discouraging to read of everyone else's happy endings. selfish?? YEA, i'll say! i am so genuinely happy for everyone, but i just wish i could tell my happy story too!
what have i realized? well, first if i want to be encouraged, i need to go to the WORD of life, not the word of the bloggers [[though i do love those too!]] thanks, mom, for reminding me of that! God is my rock and my encourager, and i need to find my joy in Him. second? i need to get out and think about others instead of focusing on how to entertain and satisfy my self and my feelings all the time.
well, last of all, i will finally ask:
if God lays it on your heart, we would be BEYOND thrilled for any monetary donations!
i hesitate to ask because i know that this is our call, but God lays different ministries on different hearts! but i also know that God has commanded us to take care of orphans and widows, and so if you can, we would be VERY thankful, and so will our baby! we understand money shortages, and we would like to say that your prayers are even more coveted than your $$!
but...if you would like to donate, you can send a check to us or our adoption agency:
we are @ 1212 Beech St, Goldsboro NC 27530
All God's Children International is @ 3308 NE Peerless Place, Portland, OR 97232
[[just make sure to let them know it is for Mark & Sarah Dickinson :D]]
THANKS always for your prayers and support and love!
sarah [[and mark]]
the fam
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my favorites
in happier times
CHANGE-ing the world one baby @ a time
road to hope
Hannah's Hope!
- sar
- though storms may come, i am holding on-to the rock i cling! how can i keep from singing your praise? i know i am loved by the King, and it makes my heart want to sing!
so how can i keep from singing your praise? i am loved by the KING, it makes my heart want to sing!
2 comments:
Sarah,
From the first time you left us a message on our caring bridge site, I was in love. Your attitude is a mirror of your heart (thats what I always tell the kids at church). You had never met us, talked to us, or even seen us and yet you took much time out of your day to inspire us and lift us up to our heavenly Father. Sent the girls a big box of preemie clothes, and then we just receive another package of the most amazingly beautiful piece of work I have ever seen. So detailed, precise and perfect. Amazingly perfect. Like no other.
I have never, in my life, met another person who spends so much of everything that they do, to serve, encourage and ignite passion into so many other people. I cannot even conjure up words to express my gratitude, love and mere affection I have towards you.
God needs you right now. Maybe its not to have your precious miracle in your hands at this present moment (because your time is coming); but He is without a doubt using you for something; for His Glory. And when that day comes when you and Mark bring home your sweet little baby; he/she will be so blessed to have a mother who has a heart such a yours.
I you weren't in like a million miles away, Im sure right along with your mom and lots of others; I would hug, kiss, cry and squeeze you.
God needs you. Maybe this is your ministry? God wants to utilize you to the fullest in every capacity because your heart is so rare.
He also has a greater plan. And so many times I have cried and been so discouraged (mostly about Faith's deafness) but He is more abundant than that. His love is greater than all else.
And Maybe, just maybe God is having you wait just a little longer because there is another family that will go through a similar situation and God knows you have the gift of "serving". And YOU will be just what that family needs.
Sarah, thank you for the "preemie-re", the clothes and the DVD. You are like nothing anyone could have imagined. You are my sister in Christ. Praise the Lord.
I 2nd what Jenn said about how sweet and giving your precious heart is!! I'm so incredibly blessed to call you daughter, friend and soul sister!!
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